An Exhausted Ramble

Today, I felt beat down. Like seriously beat down. My body is so fatigued that all it can think about is food and sleep. Ugh...hate that...

This afternoon, on my way back to the gym from an appointment with my accountant, I heard a Nick Drake song on KEXP. I think it was called "Things Behind the Sun." Not only was it beautiful to listen to, but it reminded me all of those other "parts" of me that aren't being fed right now. And that lack of balanced nutrition leaves me feeling a little spiritually ill, just as I would feel physically ill if my dietary nutrition was off so much. It's like I'm eating nothing but peanut butter, or artichokes...and it's enough to keep me alive and kicking, but at a deeper level my nutrient levels are being seriously depleted.

And also like eating just one food, I seem to be CHOOSING to just focus on work-related things. It's the catch of being self-employed, right? You have the OPTION of working less, but choosing to do so can seriously damage your financial situation. Oh well, a few months ago I gave myself until the middle of July, at which point I agreed to force myself to take time off. Two weeks away from that, and I'm pretty sure it's safe to say that I'm ready.

Side note: the NBA draft was on Tuesday. Brandon Roy, from UW, went 6th. To Minnesota and then to Portland in a trade. I feel really lucky to have been interning in the UW weightroom when I did. I had the chance to work with two current NBA players, Nate Robinson, and now Brandon Roy. Very cool.

Earlier today I had lots of good, deep, meaningful thoughts to write about. And now that the moment is here, I have no idea what they were. And even if I did, I'm not convinced I would have the energy, or the words, to commicate them here. That's fine. This is all apart of the human experience. My human experience. And that's what this is all about, right?